November 19, 2012

Drinking Poison.

Posted in Life Lessons tagged , , , at 2:56 pm by openendedcomment

I read a quote not too long ago that read “Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.” That resonated and still echos in me as a true statement and one I need to take to heart.

I’ve been thinking a great deal about this as of late.  In endeavoring to be a better person as a whole and forgive/let go of anger/move forward I’ve found there are more obstacles than I anticipated. More questions and fewer answers than I’d like. For example, at what point is it actually dumb to just let it go? When does it become a masochistic act to allow pain to continue? Is it really possible to forgive and forget or is it better to forgive and remember? And what about when you want to forgive but the forgivee just won’t stop doing the previously unforgivable? How do you forgive as an individual when as a couple (talking about my husband and I) you were wronged?

All of these questions weigh heavy on my heart these days.  In some instances it’s been easy enough to just do the right thing and move on, in others…not so much.  A few of these situations came to a head over the past weekend. I was faced with people I didn’t want to be faced with and put in situations I had no desire to be in.  But there it they and I were. And as I dealt with (or in some cases didn’t deal) with it all I thought again of the poison that all of this negativity is.  And I know it has to end.

There are people and situations I’d like very much to move on from, situations that happened, can’t be undone and I’d rather not have the lingering effects touch my life and the lives of those I love.  I know in order to do this I have to let it go and move forward, but the how to do that eludes me.  I can forgive anything.  I just can’t forget.  I don’t need revenge and I don’t want vengeance.  I just want peace.  Simplicity.

I suppose the only real course of action is to do what I know to be right.  To offer forgiveness to some and to ask for it from others. I suppose it isn’t the right approach, but I’m fairly certain that in some cases these messages won’t be received well and I suppose that’s what has stopped me from doing it sooner.  But maybe that’s the real meaning of the message…to just get rid of the poison.  Literally,  To not over-think the what-ifs of it all, to just do what I can do and to know that where it goes once it leaves me is not my choice to make.

Wish me luck.

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November 3, 2012

Censorship.

Posted in Uncategorized tagged , , , , at 9:13 am by openendedcomment

I feel that there is a disproportionate amount of prejudice, hurt and hatred being spewed these days.  I can’t stop it all but I can end some.  For those that asked, that’s why I declined to approve some comments on my last post.  It wasn’t written as an open debate on religion and politics but rather to explain my own personal view on the matter and to encourage others to examine their own personal view before voting.  I had and have no intention of telling someone else what to think or why.  I don’t believe that’s right.  I have no intention of promoting cruelty and pain be it intentional or not and therefore will not allow it on something over which I have control.  Open discussions are one thing, blatent attacks, comparisons to crimes and name calling are quite another.

I hope that after the dust has settled and the votes are all counted that we are closer to unity and acceptance for all as a society, but that’s just me.  That’s what I want.  That’s what I pray for.